some may see loyalty
as choosing a side even in blind waters
standing on a side is important
and brave
and world (big and small) changing
but only when you understand the side you’re choosing
and
the side you are choosing not
once I was a triad of three
there were three
we were three
but then two
became toxic
not the hurt each other angry toxic
it was never pointed deprecation
my life
caused her life
to spin in unnecessary circles
and her reactions
caused my life,
already spinning out of my hands and out of control,
to only rotate faster
so, we had to stop spinning each other
around
but there was one
she was stuck
in between us two
agreeing with my view
but knowing and understanding
her’s too
and she never chose
and I never wanted her to pick a side
because if the roles were reversed
I would want a friend
who won’t turn their back
when they can’t see me clearly
or don’t know all of my side
I would want a friend
who chooses kindness to all
even in confusion
and spinning circles
I would want a friend like her